But what if I did not expect anything? How would I feel and what condition would my emotional body, my thinking, be in when I did not wait for the return on my investment? I would feel nothing. No shame, hurt, pain, sadness, or anger. I would be completely present in the moment of non-expectation.
I had a conversation with someone recently about this exact subject. He said that he had no expectations. WHAT? How can this be? A person, a man, with no expectations? I had to do some pondering and figure out exactly what this meant. In a nut shell this means that he had no view or interest of the future where a certain situation was concerned. There was not a yearning for a particular outcome or a wanting or need. I believe that it is possible to have this state of mind, but I also believe it is difficult to most due to our inherent conditioning that everything must be a certain way and must make us happy or FEEL something.
Perhaps this is where I have been going wrong for all these years, I’ve been putting so much emphasis on my expectations that I never just sat in the present moment and gave the universe the chance to show me the way. To give me the “surprise” I actually would have loved and been perfectly content with. Leaving my expectations behind and embracing the pureness of each minute that unfolded. That is the story I want. When we deliberately crap on what is going to happen due to our shoulds and what ifs, we ruin what the actual moment has in store for us. Perhaps the checkout clerk smiled after we turned our head, maybe my lover winked as I bent down to pull up my sock, perhaps my mother apologized as my phone cut-out. We never know what happened and even if it didn’t… if we shook our expectations off, we wouldn’t care anyway.
Maybe this is a good thing to take into 2015, as a way of letting the “expectation hangover” sit and stay in 2014. This is just another gift to give myself in the coming year, and I’m sure I will thank my lucky universe for one less headache in the morning.